PMS
Let's talk bipolar and PMS. Yes that horrible time of the month where my hormones cause my moods to take life to a whole new level of chaos.
Being bipolar and having a hormonal surge is really hard. Not only do I bleed and it's a natural normal thing, but it has other natural side effects. PMS is beyond the worst part of my life. I get so angry and edgy that I end up even attacking my friends. My fiance is a SAINT, and I am positive that he is an outlier for many people. When I have my bipolar anger bursts, anger is a common thing. I don't get depressed as much as a type 1, but my anger is my form of depression. If I am supposed to get sad, I just get angry. I have reluctantly had the times where I have broken things, destroyed rooms, and even physically hurt people when I have my anger bursts without the PMS added in.
Some people who have the bipolar disorder have similar issues, but I am talking about mine alone. As I am trying to get pregnant when you go though the weird ovulation bullshit, then start to get happy as you haven't had your "normal" PMS symptoms, only to test negative again and again then have the rage of depression and sadness PLUS the bleeding and the SUPER delayed PMS symptoms. It is hard to explain the sadness and the heightened sense of pain during cramps. When you are scared to take pamprin because you are afraid it will alter your normal mood swings, it gets super annoying.
I think the biggest kicker is unlike "normal people" I can't drink. Mostly for the reasons for the SUPER irritability and mood swings for 48 hours after, and that it can be an addiction. Bipolars (at least all the one's I've known) are super sensitive to addictions. So when the cramps can't be solved with normal OTC pain killers, (like I've tried different doses and all of the possible ones to relieve the pain) and hot baths/heating pads don't relive the pain what am I supposed to do but cry and stay in bed.
Sometimes being normal would be so cool, but then wouldn't it be boring? I would like boring from time to time, but not all the time.
Count your blessings I guess?
I think the biggest kicker is unlike "normal people" I can't drink. Mostly for the reasons for the SUPER irritability and mood swings for 48 hours after, and that it can be an addiction. Bipolars (at least all the one's I've known) are super sensitive to addictions. So when the cramps can't be solved with normal OTC pain killers, (like I've tried different doses and all of the possible ones to relieve the pain) and hot baths/heating pads don't relive the pain what am I supposed to do but cry and stay in bed.
Sometimes being normal would be so cool, but then wouldn't it be boring? I would like boring from time to time, but not all the time.
Count your blessings I guess?
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