Why I'm not "on the path to recovery"
As a bipolar, and someone who deals with the symptoms and has to put up with the random annoyances of my PTSD, along with the bipolar depressions (generic depression is a whole different thing) ALONG with the aspurgers (now high functioning autsim) I need to put a PSA out to basically everyone who "has advice for 'us mentally ill'. "
FIRST OFF let me be perfectly clear, I do not think this everyone with ____________ disorder. Some people are still trying to figure this shit out, or are a bit soft and tender about it still.
Please note that this is to be read in a sarcastic, exasperated, and jestful voice.
1. I don't "suffer" from a mental illness.
2. I am not trying to "recover"
3. No I haven't read whatever the stupid self help book you think is amazing. Nor do I want to.
4. Yes, my episodes suck and are really annoying, but no I am a functioning adult, and I don't need to be "institutionalized" or put in a "care center"
5. YES I'd love to answer questions! I'd love to tell you about what it's like being crazy like me! This blog is a good example of it.
6. Please, for the love of my sanity and everything inside my brain, DO NOT tell me prayer is a "cure" and for the love of your fucking god don't tell me I need to find jesus. Please don't
7. Yes, I drink alcohol. Yes, it does affect me, no I don't get hangovers because I don't drink that much and that often. Yes I have meds it can interact with, and that's why I don't drink that much and that often.
8. Yes I am on meds, I take them religiously. NO for fucks sake NO I don't think they are bad for me, and I will not join your meditation drum circle.
9. On the note above, I refuse and I do mean REFUSE to do some sort of fucked up diet because it will "cleanse my body." I have a brain disorder, not a IBS problem.
10. Yes, I say I'm crazy, and honestly if you say it in jest like I do, I really don't give a damn.
11. When I have depressive episodes, I am like a cat. One second I want cuddles the next I will probably claw your eyes out and bite you hand.
12. I was diagnosed at age 10 with my bipolar and its genetic. The aspurgers (high functioning autism) was about the same time, but that's another story. AND FUCK NO It was not caused by vaccines, I will cut you if you say that I'm defective because mom had me get a shot to prevent me from contracting polio.
13. On the note above, I was diagnosed at age 10, I was very very lucky and I know not many people get that grace of that early. Not to mention a family that understood and helped me get through those days. AT THE SAME TIME, my childhood was not amazing, no I don't need to sit and talk about it, it was filled with hormones and mood swings from hell, and I have no idea how my family put up with me (and still for some reason does).
14. I don't need that long sheet of "coping skills" for my "tool box." I've probably memorized all of, any list you can throw at me from a doctors office. I have a few if you would like to hear them. I don't give them out unless asked. Why? I'm not an annoying "I have a friend who has this______ disorder" that gives out random unsolicited advice.
15. I am probably the best baker in my family because baking is a good way to waste time when you want to stay home and not deal with "the people" (ya see what I did there?)
16. Triggers, some people have them, most people bitch and moan about literally anything that "could be a trigger." Most of my shit, I just don't know because it's so underlined it's not even funny. I find the most insensitive things funny and I am the best asshole in the world.
17. ON THE SAME NOTE. I am not endorsing being a dick. There is a difference between being and asshole and a dick. It's normally the balls to know whats right and wrong and whats shit, and whats being forceful and unwanted. (haha I made a bad joke!)
18. If I see you crying, even if I don't know you, I will probably walk up and/or sit next to you on the bus, totally invade your personal space and ask if there is something I can help with. Yea, I really suck at social skills.
19. I care too much, and I also tend to want to kick people for being bullies and horrible to other people because I hated when that happened to me. Sadly, you can't do that as an adult, it's called assault and it normally frowned upon.
20. I tend to collect random bits of stupid information and most of it being incomplete because squirrel. That's basically my aspurgers and mania in a nutshell (squirrel)
There is so much more I can add to this list, but I think I'm getting a bit redundant and annoying. Anyhoot. That's why I'm not "recovering," because I've pretty much had 17 years to figure it out. I just put up with my brain and its dumb ways. I am even luckier to know what I need when shit hits the fan, and I have plenty of cool people in my life who get it.
Cheers to those who "got their shit together" like me, now go help those who might need a quick and swift kick in the ass and a cookie.
We got this.
FIRST OFF let me be perfectly clear, I do not think this everyone with ____________ disorder. Some people are still trying to figure this shit out, or are a bit soft and tender about it still.
Please note that this is to be read in a sarcastic, exasperated, and jestful voice.
1. I don't "suffer" from a mental illness.
2. I am not trying to "recover"
3. No I haven't read whatever the stupid self help book you think is amazing. Nor do I want to.
4. Yes, my episodes suck and are really annoying, but no I am a functioning adult, and I don't need to be "institutionalized" or put in a "care center"
5. YES I'd love to answer questions! I'd love to tell you about what it's like being crazy like me! This blog is a good example of it.
6. Please, for the love of my sanity and everything inside my brain, DO NOT tell me prayer is a "cure" and for the love of your fucking god don't tell me I need to find jesus. Please don't
7. Yes, I drink alcohol. Yes, it does affect me, no I don't get hangovers because I don't drink that much and that often. Yes I have meds it can interact with, and that's why I don't drink that much and that often.
8. Yes I am on meds, I take them religiously. NO for fucks sake NO I don't think they are bad for me, and I will not join your meditation drum circle.
9. On the note above, I refuse and I do mean REFUSE to do some sort of fucked up diet because it will "cleanse my body." I have a brain disorder, not a IBS problem.
10. Yes, I say I'm crazy, and honestly if you say it in jest like I do, I really don't give a damn.
11. When I have depressive episodes, I am like a cat. One second I want cuddles the next I will probably claw your eyes out and bite you hand.
12. I was diagnosed at age 10 with my bipolar and its genetic. The aspurgers (high functioning autism) was about the same time, but that's another story. AND FUCK NO It was not caused by vaccines, I will cut you if you say that I'm defective because mom had me get a shot to prevent me from contracting polio.
13. On the note above, I was diagnosed at age 10, I was very very lucky and I know not many people get that grace of that early. Not to mention a family that understood and helped me get through those days. AT THE SAME TIME, my childhood was not amazing, no I don't need to sit and talk about it, it was filled with hormones and mood swings from hell, and I have no idea how my family put up with me (and still for some reason does).
14. I don't need that long sheet of "coping skills" for my "tool box." I've probably memorized all of, any list you can throw at me from a doctors office. I have a few if you would like to hear them. I don't give them out unless asked. Why? I'm not an annoying "I have a friend who has this______ disorder" that gives out random unsolicited advice.
15. I am probably the best baker in my family because baking is a good way to waste time when you want to stay home and not deal with "the people" (ya see what I did there?)
16. Triggers, some people have them, most people bitch and moan about literally anything that "could be a trigger." Most of my shit, I just don't know because it's so underlined it's not even funny. I find the most insensitive things funny and I am the best asshole in the world.
17. ON THE SAME NOTE. I am not endorsing being a dick. There is a difference between being and asshole and a dick. It's normally the balls to know whats right and wrong and whats shit, and whats being forceful and unwanted. (haha I made a bad joke!)
18. If I see you crying, even if I don't know you, I will probably walk up and/or sit next to you on the bus, totally invade your personal space and ask if there is something I can help with. Yea, I really suck at social skills.
19. I care too much, and I also tend to want to kick people for being bullies and horrible to other people because I hated when that happened to me. Sadly, you can't do that as an adult, it's called assault and it normally frowned upon.
20. I tend to collect random bits of stupid information and most of it being incomplete because squirrel. That's basically my aspurgers and mania in a nutshell (squirrel)
There is so much more I can add to this list, but I think I'm getting a bit redundant and annoying. Anyhoot. That's why I'm not "recovering," because I've pretty much had 17 years to figure it out. I just put up with my brain and its dumb ways. I am even luckier to know what I need when shit hits the fan, and I have plenty of cool people in my life who get it.
Cheers to those who "got their shit together" like me, now go help those who might need a quick and swift kick in the ass and a cookie.
We got this.
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